I know I would never go back to you
But my thoughts cloud my reason
And I can’t help but think of what we used to have.
If I could go back,
I would have done things differently
But nothing could alter the inevitable
It was all destiny.
I’m reborn, new set of problems
Solutions I had are now theories I have
On how love is truly an illusion we create
To find a purpose in life when we are unhappy with ourselves.
Like rhyming in a poem,
It is unnecessary in its entirety
But it paints a beautiful picture
And leaves a lasting impression
On what you thought you knew.
Even with theory engraved,
For some reason, I long for that feeling I once felt,
But whenever I sense its arrival,
My mind takes over my heart
And repels temporary happiness.
Like same ends of a magnet,
We are forcefully held together
Through belief that with enough time spent
Embraced in each others arms,
An exterior force called love will step in
And defy the laws of physics.
We forget that a human’s natural state was
Based solely on survival
And love was created as our species
Evolved and became the superior being
Where newfound glory surfaced
As survival of the fittest became a thing of the past.
But love is a powerful force,
Whether real or imaginary,
It overwhelms and leaves even the greatest of minds
I’m lost without it, not without you,
But you introduced me to that world.
A world where everything you did made you happier,
Every mistake you committed was forgiven, by you.
I stay up late at times, wondering why I miss you.
Why I love my new life.
Why I miss love.
I’m sorry to the next, if you cant understand me,
There’s not much I can do or say.
I don’t believe in love
But I believe in companionship.
I believe in commitment, respect, and loyalty.
I believe in all the components necessary in
Making a relationship work,
All except love.
If love is what she wants, she will be disappointed.
My love I left with you, and I hope you can utilize it
To love the one you love now.
I don’t need it anymore, nor do I want it.
I have spiritual guidance to lead my path now.
Knowledge of life and wisdom ahead of me.
I know I won’t find true happiness,
But a smile emerges on my face, knowing
That at least I know I won’t find unhappiness.